WEAR & TEAR

So after reading Vic's blog about how he has always been the naive guy who tries to do nice things for people and just gets shot down and underappreciated (if that's a word), I realized...i'm the same way. It amazes me how hard you try to please people and in the end...although you feel good, it makes you upset because you end up getting criticized by others rather than praised. Lately I feel Ive been so underappreciated and mistreated unfairly by people, especially my roomate, Robyn. Ever since we told her we weren't going to be living with her next year, she's been a jerk to me. I've tried making things better by talking to her like normal...like how we used to interact wiht each other before things got rough. She seemed to go along with it. Lately we have been running low of house supplies, and Franchesca comes up to me i nthe kitchen and was like"...I was gonna do the dishes for us (as if us meant my dishes...which none of the dishes were mine), but we don't have any more dishwashing soap." She then opened the cupbaord and showed me that there was a bottle w/ nothing in it. SO i was like" ...o so there's nothing in that bottle there?" and she replied that there wasn't. So i was like "so fran if there's nothing in that bottle, why did you jus leave it there and not jus throw it away...is it for decoration?" I admit i shouldnt have been sarcastic with her like that but that was the second time she did that in this wk! Earlier in teh week she used up the aluminum foil and said "oh no were out of foil...can you go buy some?" and then put the container bak in the drawer! I had to say something to her then also....who in their sane mind would do such a thing??? If its used up..go throw the thing away! And then I had to expalin to her that i'm not in charge of getting house supplies and it was rude of her to assume i'm the one who should buy everything.

So yesterday I bought out house supplies anyways, like TP, paper towels, dishwashing detergent, etc.... It's not even in my job description to be doing that...we didn't designate that job to me at all...I just do it because we were in desperate need of house supplies and I wanted to do a good thing and go out and get the stuff bc I had a spare hour in my day to do it. So I come bak and I see Robyn and say hi and asked her if she noticed all the new supplies I bought and she was like..yea thats great. She didn't even thank me or anything but i wasnt expecting much from her. Then I put up a note on the fridge for how much each person owes me for the house supplies. Then i hear from Nicolette that Robyn was mad at me bc she thinks i'm a mean person (which i have no idea why...maybe just bc i dont want to live w/ her anymore) and that she asked nickel to tell me to put up the receipt on the fridge bc she thinks i'm cheating them out of money! After living w/ her for 2 yrs and trusting one another and never ever putting up a darn receipt on the fridge for anythign or anyone, she refuses to pay me back for house supplies until i put a receipt on the fridge. That really hurts that not only she's talking to me bc she feels she has to be civil...but also that she doesnt trust me and thinks i would cheat them out of moeny. I tried so hard lately to try to make things bak to normal and she doesnt even want to talk to me...I tried not being immature about the whole situation but if she really doesnt want to talk to me...she shouldnt fake it. She should jus ignore me if thats how she really feels. And if she odesnt want to pay me for house supplies, then she she go buy her own supplies and not use my cleaning supplies nor my TP...she can use her hand for all i care. Robyn knows how busy I am with two jobs and school and she doesnt even work nor have an itnernship...i think she should have time to go buy supplies...I get so frustrated with these people who can't be considerate or at least civil to me...i don't thin kI did anything wrong to them that should make her hate me so much. I have enough stress to deal with...i can't wait to go home...